If I’d listened enough to you
if I give you time
to change my mind
I’d find a way to leave the past behind
knowing that all isn’t true
I’d listen long enough to know
never thinking of myself
that it’s all true
but then I’d look for a reason to believe
what sort of insidious control do you assume?
enter this place
find your space
please, take your seat
defeated (who) man
no game
broken brain
never to be the same
decide
decision
derision
sufficiently different to make a difference
last night of days to end all days
so what’s new
openness closed
no blink of an eye
a heart that froze
zigzag fire blasts
embers all the same
raised flames
take the heat
do not speak
tongue tied
tongue tight
all about right
scorched hearth scorching
do tell
or go to hell
stand tall
stand straight
or
suck it fucking up
don’t stand at all
last thing first
first thing last
relinquished
diminished
laughable
nothing new
for me
for you
break away
away too far
what, what too
exhaustedness innumerable numbness thwarted
designated journey ahead
enclosedness beckons
non-arrival arrivals anhilism this way
a no go, go journey
leave your place
make a space
you’ve vacated your seat
no go, go
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In places of last retreat rumination holds Court,
always to be found
discarded disregarded,
no loss
no found
as easy to hang on to as not,
matters not,
inconsequential so it seems,
with no purpose yet always anew,
much ado about nothing,
ruminate roaming just for you,
an anchor or bouy you shall be,
keep you up just enough to breathe,
water board boarding
after all else has gone,
discarded disregarded,
it matters and matters not,
never ever really to be or not to be,
water choked thoughts always afloat,
never spoken out loud,
where lost is also found,
discarded disregarded,
silent numbness pouring wet,
rotten dry squatting in the chest,
not here to hear or there to be theirs,
a clutched at hand forgotten,
not wanted and memory not had,
rumination would rather be anything else,
than a place of last retreat.
through brash and hawthorn
on hands and knees
crawling through hurt
cuts deep so deep
yet this blood entwined flows free
cellular divinity enshrined in me
heart aches
breaks to find thee
said angels and ghouls
don’t go there
stay here with us
this dispair we’ll share
get to fuck
this pain I’ll bear not share
hold it in love and never dispair
I’ll follow and follow until I find
the love that hides
soul light as guide calming inside
death thought
I have the cut of your cloth
menace I match thee
with axe
one blow
now let go
you have what I am
now set me free
I’ll find you
in here and hear you
I hold you with care
I will carry you in love
love to spare
love did spread like star dust from above
and
a shower did fall this way
a story of love untold
of quantum bonds
and
earnest promises to be met
a pledge of love from oneself in the other
nothing else above
everything else to be
in a love so plain
so plain to see
fly high
hit the floor
smashed right through the fucking door
this pledge of love is like no other
love you in me
so simple
simple as can be
nothing above
nothing below
in defiance of reality
no judge shall sit within your Court
just love
divinity of all life
take me to that place
deep within
where I can know nothing
and
be reborn
anew.
Annadatthu haro mitto
one who makes friends only to cheat them
Yo ca mitto vaci-paramo
one who is only good in word
Anupiyanca yo ahu
one who flatters and cajoles
Apayesu ca yo sakha
and a companion in ruinous fun
Ete admitted cattaro Iti vinnaya pandito
These four, the wise know as non friends
Araka parivajjeyya
avoid them from a far
Maggam patibhayam yatha
like a dangerous road
Upakaro ca yo mitto
a friend who is helpful
Sukha-dukkho ca yo sakha
one who shares in your sorrows and joys
Attakkayi ca yo mitto
one who points you to worthwhile things
Yo ca mittanampako
one sympathetic to friends
Eyepi mitte cattaro Iti vinnaya pandito
these four, the wise know as true friends
Sakkaccam payirupsaeyya
attend to them earnstly
Mata puttam va orasan
as a mother her child
Middle of the Heart 